Thank you

Today is an ok day. The first one I have had in a long time. I have not cried much today. Since I am feeling up to it, I want to just take this time to thank everyone.  Dave and I feel blessed to have such amazing family and friends in our lives. Thank you for the gifts, cards, flowers, food....we really do appreciate it. They have helped. It is still very hard for me to talk about so I have been VERY antisocial these past 10 days but thank you all for understanding. Dont give up on me, please continue to pray for my family! Dave has been my ROCK, my communicator, my EVERYTHING since this has happened and I just thank God for him every day. He has handle everything with such grace, and understanding. He has broken down and cried many times, but he has been so strong for me. This whole experience has brought us so much closer as husband and wife. I loved my husband before all of this happened but if you ask me today how I feel, I feel something special with Dave. I not only LOVE him but I feel no one else can know my pain like he does, its a bond that can never be broken. As for me and God....this is a tough one for me. I 110% know that this has brought my husband closer to God. As for me, I still have anger. I have cursed, screamed, cried out to him since this happened many times. A lot of it has to do with disappointment, i feel that God has failed me. That he choose not to listen to my prayers, and I am hurt beyond measure. One day I hope I can look you in the eyes and say that my relationship with God is great again, but today is not the day! I have a lot of hurt in my heart! This hurt is now something that I have to live with for the rest of my life. Everyone keeps saying "take it one day at a time". So that is what I am going to do. "Time heals all wounds" right?