1 week

Today is a tough one, 1 week ago at 4:25 am I gave birth to my stillborn son. How can 1 week seem to drag on, worst week of my life! The pain feels like it just happened yesterday. Tomorrow is going to be another HARD day. Tomorrow Dave and I have to go to the funeral home to sign the papers for Jacobs cremation. Never in my worst nightmares did I ever think that I would have to do this, you are not supposed to bury your kids, especially not a baby that didn't even have a chance here on earth. I really need prayers to get thru tomorrow! We have decided to get Jacob cremated instead of buried because we are not familiar with the cemeteries around here, and Dave wants to put it in our will that whoever dies first gets to be buried with Jacobs ashes. I know its only his body, and that his soul is in heaven but for the past week it has bothered me so much that his body is just all alone in the morgue. I think I will be somewhat relived when i have him with us.